•  I’m loud.
•  I’m obnoxious. 
•  I’m sarcastic.
•  I’m cocky.
•  I cry easily.
•  I have a bad temper.
•  I’m easy to get along with.
•  I have more enemies than friends.
•  I’ve smoked.
•  I’ve smoked weed. 
•  I drink coffee.
•  I clean my room daily.

•   I wear a piece of jewelery at all times.
•   I wear makeup.
•   I wear contacts. 
•   I wear glasses.
•   I have braces
•   I change my hair colour often
•   I straighten my hair often
•   I have a piercing
•   I have small feet 

•         I’m in a relationship now.
•         I’m single.
•         I’m crushing. 
•         I’m always scared of being hurt.
•         An ex has physically abused me at least once.
•         I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
•         I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
•         I’ve been in love more than two times.
•         I believe in love at first sight.
•         I believe lust is more important than love. 

 
Friendships:

•         I have a best friend.
•        I have at least ten friends.
•        I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
•        I’ve beaten up a friend.
•        I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.

•         I’ve been on a plane.
•         I’ve been on a train.
•         Someone close to me has died.
•         I’ve taken a taxi.
•         I’ve taken a city bus.
•         I’ve taken a school bus.
•         I’ve gone bungee jumping.
•         I’ve made a speech.
•         I’ve been in some sort of club.
•         I’ve won an award.
•         I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.
•         I’ve been in a physical fight.

•         I listen to R&B.
•         I listen to country.
•         I listen to pop.
•         I listen to techno.
•         I listen to rock.
•         I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it.
•         I hate the radio.
•         I download music.
•         I buy CD’s. 

•         I spend at least six hours a day watching television.
•         I watch soap operas daily.
•         I’m in love with Days of Our Lives.
•         I’ve seen and liked the O.C.
•         I’ve seen and liked One Tree Hill.
•         I’ve seen and liked Americas Next Top Model.
•         I’ve seen and liked Popular.
•         I’ve seen and liked 24.
•         I’ve seen and liked CSI.
•         I’ve seen and liked Everwood.

•         I get along with both of my parents.
•         My biological parents are still together.
•         I have at least one brother.
•         I have at least one sister.
•         I have at least one step brother/sister.
•         I have at least one half brother/sister.
•         I’ve been kicked out of the house.
•         I’ve ran away from my home.
•         I’ve sworn at my parents.
•         I’ve made my parents cry. 
•         I’ve lied to my parents.
•         I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
•         I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.
•         I’ve lied to my parents so I’d be allowed out.
•         I’ve walked out when I’ve been grounded.

•         I’ve been brown.
•         I’ve had streaks.
•         I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
•         I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
•         I’ve been blonde.
•         I’ve had black. 
•         I’ve been red.
•         I’ve been light brown.
•         I’ve been blue/green.
•         I’ve gotten my hair thinned.
•         I use conditioner.
•         I’ve used silk therapy.
•         I’ve used hot oil treatments.
•         I’ve curled my hair.
•         I’ve straightened my hair. (tried with an iron-yeah the one for clothes)
•         I’ve ironed my hair.
•         I’ve braided my hair.

•         I’ve yelled at a teacher.
•         I’ve been suspended.
•         I’ve had an in-school suspension.
•         I’ve been sent to the principal’s office.
•         I’ve walked out of class.
•         I’ve skipped an entire day of school.
•         I’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.
•         I’ve failed a test.
•         I’ve cheated on a test. (once, in college, it was a quiz on TITAS, but I felt bad and got my   punishment- my result were bad)
•         I’ve helped someone else cheat on a test.
•         I’ve failed Art.
•         I’ve failed P.E.
•         I’ve failed math. (addmaths, I failed twice during my first 2 test )
•         I’ve failed another class.
•         A teacher has called my parents.

taken from wehearit.com

Have you ever woke up and wonder about all the things you've done throughout your whole life? Did you do any good? Did you hurt others both intentional or unintentional? Did you actually learn from your mistakes? Do you actually live to improve yourself? All these questions, no one can answer them except yourself- myself. As a Muslim, I'm obligated to do good, but as humans, I can never escape from mistakes. It's okay, I tell myself. I'm still learning, I'm meant to make mistakes.

But do I really learn? Truth is, I don't.

My religion taught me many great things, but it is always up to myself to follow what Allah (God) told me to do; He said with every action, there is an equal reaction. If I don't do good, I won't get good. It is as simple as that. I choose the path of Islam, or to be more precise, my parents choose for me, or oh wait no because my grandparents were the one that choose Islam for my parents (it stops there because my great grandparents was a convert). We were born muslims, we should be thankful (I'm using the pronoun 'we' because I want to relate to you- if you're a muslim, if you're not, it's okay take it as your religion because my point can be related to all religions because I believe that all religion are there for the sake of goodness). We should be embracing our religion, but look at us now? It is, as if, having a stack of gold right in front of you but not doing anything about it.

The thing about being brought up in an Islamic family is that, sometimes I take it easily and I feel like I know everything about it, but I don't. The things that I know could only be the basics and that's like 10% and out of the 10%, how much do I truly apply in my life? This question scares me a lot. In 2013, I decided to take a leap and start wearing hijab, I explored more of Islam and I'm grateful to have my parents who were always keen to learn more in depth about what Islam truly is. However somewhere along the journey, I encountered a (red) traffic light, it turned green a few times (when my parents advised me, when I woke up at 3.a.m which was the perfect time to talk to Allah, etc) but I didn't move.

It takes energy, effort, help altogether to move forward. Likewise learning more, it takes commitment, time, effort and all those things anyone could ever think of. However, it's not like a journey to school where you have to pay for the fare, food, book and so much more. All the information, all the knowledge, all the help is for free! It's there. I can simply go to mosque every day and attend kuliyah maghrib* to gain the knowledge that Mufti Menk** can talk about without paying hundreds of ringgits. I can simply go to the library, or refer to the Quran when I have problems (although it is better to have someone to interpret the meaning). I mean, it's right in front of me, but why am I not moving?

Well, I guess it's because I don't have a clear goal of where am I really going, what am I getting myself into or simply because I'm scared of change.

To have a clear goal, to create my own path, I need to have knowledge of my goal and my goal is paradise, but what exactly is paradise? I'm not so sure myself, but I know it is good.

To be scared of change, I guess that's normal but isn't that what makes us better? Improve? The world changes, back then people weren't civilized, now we have things that those people couldn't even think of and it's all because of change.

So, today, the point of my post is to encourage people that can related to me, and encourage myself to move forward, in shaa Allah***- look for the purpose of life, look for what Islam really is. The traffic light is green all the time, it up to ourselves now- really learn from mistakes (by admitting that we did it), forgive people every day for what they did to us because we will learn to be more patient with that and remember our goal.

Peace upon be you.
Adios, xoxo.

*a religious talk to improve lives of people/ share information
**a famous muslim speaker
***if God wills it in arabic languange

Hi girls (or guys)! I hope you had a wonderful day and if there's anything bothering you, just remember to go back to Allah and in shaa Allah He will help you with whatever you're facing now! :)



So, let's get back to the point of this post. I think I've used this product long enough to write a review on it. To be exact, I'm almost finishing up with this and I'm squeezing the heck out of the bottle to get the product out (yes, I need to get a new one).  So let's get into the basics, I purchased it at SASA, City Square, JB, Malaysia in early January 2015 so it's almost a solid 12 months for RM40 (It was on sale). Mind you that I don't wear bb cream every day but if I do wear, I would often reapply after my zuhur prayers (because we all know to pray, you gotta have wudhu').

Hada Labo is a Japanese skincare brand that's famous for its' toner and facial cleanser for its' whitening and hydrating effect. For Muslims, do not worry, this product is safe to use. I was looking for a hunt for a perfect BB cream since my friend (in high school) was a huge fan of BB cream and her skin looks amazing. So, I decided one day to give it a try. Before this I used ZA BB cream but I didn't like it because it made my face grey as I have olive skin and the BB cream only comes in one colour.

Hada Labo Air BB Cream has 2 colour which is perfect for those who prefers using BB rather than foundation. There's Natural Beige (light) and Ivory Beige (medium).

Pic taken from google.

Mine is Ivory Beige because I tan easily so I thought it would be better to have something that is as close to my natural skin.

So here are a few pictures that you might want to look at.

The left picture is my bare face without any face makeup or skincare on. The right is with only the BB Cream on.

Left: Before, Right: After

As you can see, it brightens my skin without making it look unnatural. It blends into the natural skin colour and conceal (a bit) of my dark under eye as well as redness on the side of my nose.

Look at how it looks before I blend it using fingers.

This is the texture.

Now let's look at what claims to do and I'd give a rating out of 5 stars.
(0= false, 1=not so much true, 2=true but only during application, 3=okay but doesn't last long, 4=good, 5=great, absolutely true!) whereas the indented words are my comments on it (if I have any)

Mind you that this claim taken from Guardian website :) Click here to find out more and purchase it!


(5/5) • Brightens Complexion : 
Natural shades helps to brighten skin complexion for a more radiant look.

(4/5)  • Perfect Skin Tone : 
Helps to even out skin tone.
The longer I wear, the more it soaks into my skin making it looking more natural. Great for indoor, not suitable for outdoor because it leaves a sticky feeling.

(3/5) • Concealer : 
Conceals dark spots, fine lines and blemishes.
Light coverage as a concealer because it fades after 4 hours.

(3/5) • Whitening : 
Contains Arbutin to help fight dark spots.
Instant whitening, yes. Long term? Not so much. Once removed, viola, you're normal back again. The similar effect of what foundation does. However, it did help a bit to whiten my skin because I tan easily but not so much to a point that I don't need any whitening product to treat my sunburn/ suntan.

(4/5) • UV Protection : 
With SPF50+PA+++ to provide broad spectrum protection from UVA/UVB rays.
SPF 50?! Yeah, man! 

(2/5) • Hydrate : 
With Super Hyaluronic Acid to instantly plump up skin for a visibly soft and supple skin.
At first yeah it was okay, but not after 1 minute of application. You'd have to wear a moisturizer underneath it. 

(4/5) • Anti-Aging : 
With Hydrolyzed Collagen to improve skin's elasticity.
I'm young, why not start early? It did help with my laugh line. 

(3/5) • Oil Control : 
With Witch Hazel Extract to help control oil for a complete matte look.
Controls only when indoor, but for only 4 hours. 

(4/5) • Minimizes Pores : 
Help to refine pores for a visibly clear smooth skin.
Yes! Unless if you pack on a ton of powder.

(4/5) • Anti-Oxidant : 
With Vitamin C to help fight free radicals.
Like I said, it did help a bit to treat my tan.

Overall, it was worth it the price and I would definitely repurchase it. Would I recommend it? Yes! A bit of disclaimer, I am a nobody and I am not paid to do this review. Skincare had always been my passion and I know if I were to buy any products I'd look it up on google and read reviews on it so this is my honest review and I hope it helps you in many ways.

Peace upon be you. Adios, xoxo.

I've listed the best gift anyone could (has) ever give(n)  to me;

I am not anywhere near bragging about how ungrateful I am in my life. I'm truly grateful for what Allah has given me; great family, friends and education to pursue my dream. Like all other students, I'm trying my best college to excel and further live my dream, of course not forgetting the people I love.

In the context of pursuing my dream, let's face reality, money is needed. It is an essential resource no matter much I hate putting money on my priority list as a student (and my parents kept saying don't worry about it, we will work it out for you to achieve excellence in your future). As a child to two amazing people, who wouldn't tear up when your mom and dad (financially struggle) to make your dreams into a reality. They sacrificed so much for their children and I'm truly thankful to have such parents although I know that there are people who are not as blessed as I am.

Coming back to my point, as a student, my life should be focusing more on obtaining good grades so that I could graduate. However, reality does not allow that. I'm a normal girl from an average income family. I have 5 siblings and I'm the only one who's done with school.

Ever since GST (Government Service Tax) started, my family struggled into providing needs. I know it might not be as bad as it seems to be, but I can see the difference. Everyday I imagine what would a lesser income family had to go through.

Everyday (weekdays) my dad sends the family to school and work (my mom). My 15 year old sister goes to school by van. My parents had to pay RM80 per month for that (and it's assuming to increase). My dad sends my 10 years old brother to a school in Selangor (we live in Negeri Sembilan) because they want him to get good education since the school in Negeri Sembilan is less hardworking like Selangor. My 8 years old brother is studying in Al-Amin Islamic School because my parents wants him to get far better Islamic education. The fees are at least to be RM1000 per year. My 6 years old sister is in kindergarten. Even that, it's at least RM300 per month. These are all not included with the books we have to buy and clothes.

My mom is working in Kuala Lumpur. Due to cost, time-saving and avoiding heavy traffics, she travels by public transport. Each month it would cost up to RM200. Let's not forget my dad who has to drive everyone to school and ktm stations every day.

I'm currently studying in a private university in Damansara Heights (before anyone starts bragging about realizing how much my parents could not afford that, I'm under full scholarship). I lived in Bangsar when I did my foundation. Just the cost of a sharing room that smaller than the room I have at my house right now is RM700 per month per individual. Nevertheless, I thank Allah because my scholarship paid for the rent.

But,

Things changed when I started my degree life. My scholar no longer pays the rent. However, they said they will provide me with RM700 per month. I thought hey that's okay I can survive with that, it is more than enough. But recalling back to how much a small sized sharing room costs (RM700) I decided not to live near college. My parents disagreed with me because it is time-consuming to travel from where I live to my college (approx. no jam 90 minutes). However, I had to face reality and work my best into making it happen and it did.

Everything was going well except the fact that my scholar had not given me my allowance since I started degree. This is tough. I had to say, for one month I have to use RM150 just for transportation and not including my books and meal fares. My mom gives me RM200 per month and sometimes she pays for my transport, but I know it costs her a lot since her paycheck isn't that much but she still sacrifices for her daughter which made me truly blessed to have a generous caring mother.

But now things are about to change.

We have already lived in a short budget, but now the government is increasing the public transport fees despite the toll had already increased. Anyone stupid enough (pardon my choice of word), could figure out that people who use the public transport consists of the majority of those living in a short budget.

Now I have to find a job to support myself (but I'm also doing it for an experience of how my future life is going to be). Malaysian citizens are now living to pay off their bills instead of really living. Wait, I shouldn't use the term "living" I should instead use the term "surviving".

Malaysian citizens are now surviving to pay off their bills instead of really living.

There, that sounded more realistic.

If I'm from an average income family with an average number of kids. I can't imagine how much harder it would be for those who is living a tougher life than me.

This post is not about me, but it is about the life of an average Malaysian student/ citizen. I'm considered average. There are those who suffers but regardless of these, we all feel the difference the authority is making in this country, and we all know it is not a good difference.

Dear prime minister, is this what you'd imagine the future of the country would be? Are you the exact representation of what leader you're trying to look for in the future? By hook or by crook, you're still going to retire.  I could only pray to Allah and ask him to open up your heart to understand what your citizen is going through.

For once try to live a life of your average citizen, understand them.