I bet for those who has a sister or sisters would understand this post most.

You know how you always buy stuff like I don't know, makeup, clothes, skincare products or yeah actually basically anything! and there comes your little sister.... curious of how it looks on her or is also interested to try it out. So, she takes/ uses/ wears your stuff. Right? Right? Riiiiiiight?

I'm sure this happens to you too (or maybe you still haven't discovered that it was your sister who finishes your perfume) lol.

I think all sister (younger especially, does it to the older) does it. It gets annoying sometimes, but it can also get serious. For example, I'm allergic to Lux Soap, then my sister uses my loofah to you know with the soap while showering! It makes me so pissed because it'll affect my skin so bad that I'll have to spend more money on going to the doctor and buying creams such.

But there are times where I have to pretend to not know that she's using my stuff because it's just an irrelevant way to start a fight and I do not want to. It's okay if she uses my lotion or perfume once in a while I mean, I get it right? They're young and curious.

Well, whatever it is, I still love my sister it's just that sometimes it would be nice if she's kind enough to not use my products that I swear to live by like my loofah!

Adios, xoxo.

Fun fact about me: I love planning, but I barely stick to my plan. 

This was what I bought.

Cute, right? Even by looking at it gives me my motivation! (I'm a very visual person).

There's a lot to love about Malay (my race) but like everything else, there's also the downfall. Keep in mind that this doesn't apply to all Malays but mostly those who are close minded and views society's opinion as what matter most. I'm not going to touch on many things but I'm going to touch on one to be specific, which is, skin tone.

Everyone is born with unique and different skin tones, some are in the light shades, some in the medium and some in the dark. Whatever colour we all naturally are, I believe that it's all our uniqueness and gives us our identity. It is something that we should be thankful about. In my opinion, black, white, brown or yellow, it all doesn't matter. It's just a colour. Eg: someone wearing black and someone wearing pink. The concept is the same. It's just a colour. What matters to me is what is deep down inside. You could be the fairest person on earth but have a dark heart, or vice versa.

However society doesn't put it that way. They don't get the fact that beauty is subjective and universal. Everyone is different and beautiful in their own ways. Society makes young girls (especially) want to change their skin colour just to fit in the crowd. To feel beautiful (on the outside) which now that is the only thing that they care about.




Going on to Malaysians or Malay in particular, we are blessed with nicely tan skin but we want to be white so bad, Same goes to the white, they're blessed to be fair but they want to be tan so bad. It's just not right. I get, do what makes you feel beautiful, yes but trust me, most of them do it because they feel beautiful that people think they're beautiful or they feel confident because society accepts them. As much as how cliche this may sound but I disagree because deep down inside we all know (girls especially) how hard it is to maintain's society's perfect model but still most of us do it because that is what everyone is doing. It's conformity in silence that you barely even notice.

It's sad to know that we (girls) have to do things to feel beautiful. Shouldn't we just stick to what we naturally are and be able to feel beautiful too?

There's so much work that needs to be done, so much money to spend on just to be beautiful (for people) and that's just wrong.

I've witnessed many people buying whitening products, harming their skin just to look beautiful on the outside not thinking of what the long term effects might be. These kids had been soaked deep in society's dark hole and these are the kinds that are easily influenced. If one of their friends discovered a way to be white (eg: using colgate on their face) trust me, other would do too. (I did an experiment on this, it actually happened)

So you see, people are trying hard to please others nowadays and we often compare ourselves with other people who we think are much more better than us in so many ways that we always forget that everyone is created differently and we all have different purposes in life. She may be good in some things and you may be good to others. It's not god to compare and make us feel small. (unless, you want to better yourself then yes, but I don't believe in pleasing society to live my life).



Now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that you shouldn't make yourself beautiful or feel beautiful. Do as you please but you know yourself deep down who you're doing all this for. I know there are people who disagrees with me but everyone has their rights to have an opinion of their own on anything, and this is mine. However I'm still learning and if it's wrong, do correct me.

Adios, xoxo.

Pic credit; OSX Photography (Ong Si Xuan)

From now onwards, I'm going to challenge myself to post at least once a week so that I'm able to reflect as well as improve myself. I think it's a good idea and I don't mind sharing with people (it's not like it's something personal or anything) hehe. So, I'll start with this week but I'll be posting late night because I have so much things on schedule today and I have to shower now!

One year pass by like a bullet train. I still remember my first day of college, we got lost because we don't know where the class is. Not to mention, my college was weird as heck (it was underground). Thank god my life with mice and cockroaches had ended. Once foundation ended, I was in a dilemma to either stay in Bangsar or just move back to my house since I'll only have three days of classes for my degree programme. It was a nerve wrecking process deciding where you'd spend your three years of degree at. I mean, with all the assignments of course you'd need a place where you can study comfortably so that you can achieve great results, right?