No beings are allowed to judge anyone because only God is allowed to judge us

I think life as a movie. And I am the main character of my movie. Same goes as you are the main character of your own movie. In movies- some realistic, some not, have background music. However in real life, there is no such thing as background music, no such thing as a miracle you can get whatever you want, a perfect life, a perfect movie. But I know for sure that in life, we are the ones who make choices. No scripts and all. That’s the thing about life you see, the freedom to do and choose whatever you want.

I wouldn’t really say I have a great experience and I am wiser now since I have been studying approximately three months in college now. I’ve been away from my family and I have got the chance to learn the true meaning of friends. I have learned the types of people in life and I have learned whom I should be with and whom I should not be with. I also wouldn’t say that this few months was spectacular, but I am glad and thankful that I had the chance to learn a few things on life. For instance, I know now that even sometimes people are friends with you just because of what you have and what they want from you. They’re not real friends; that is.

I have also learned that everyone is different. I have met different lecturers, from they way they taught and they way they approach their students. Some lecturers are very old fashion while some tried hard to fit in with teenagers like us. But no matter how different and how bad I think someone is, everyone has their good sides, and that is just the thing that I need to know about them.

It’s amazing how three months could open up my eyes to things like this and made me realize than my life before this was only a small phase. All the thing that I’ve been through has made me become a much stronger person and I thank God for that. I thank God of how close I am to Him now. That I am now able to thank Him for the love and everything He gave me.

You see, my life is my own movie. I believe that I want to make this movie something that I would love to watch. One day, I am going to make my parents proud and learn more stuff that I do not even know now.

It's been a hard time for me and the start of a new year gave me a perfect chance to start over. I've been closer to Allah more than ever and alhamdulillah I feel happy. The best way is to leave everything to Allah he'll decide everything because I know his plans for me are better than my dreams. I've been through a lot of difficulties in life-- losing a person that I loved all my heart. Getting my heart breaks and having no one there to share with. Haih, a lot of tears had been shed. But I know, whatever I do, I'll never get him back for the person that I fell in love once. I'm afraid if he will hurt me again that he won't be the same again. To love someone takes a lot of courage cause you're giving your heart to him/ her. It ain't something easy that everyone can face. And what you think loving someone is easy? It is but once he's found someone to replace your place once, you'll be heartbroken to the dead. That you thought he/ she was the one that you thought that he/ she will be your future halal partner but then they didn't. That you thought you'd spend the rest of your majestic life with than incredible person that completes you and gives you butterflies in your belly but you're not going to anymore, it's hard. And that one particular time you thought what was your mistake and you thought about those memories you've had together in the midnight when the star was shining bright but your sky was dark with tears and memories that's about to fade away forever. You promised to yourself that you will not ever stalk him/ her but deep down you know, you could never do that cause you still love him/ her. And he/ she will not notice you anymore nor he will not look at you the same way anymore. Hes' has someone new is his life- someone who's better than you, someone who's 100x more perfect in physical and mental qualities than you are. But there you are- wishing and wanting him back.

A few weeks passed by, your life was at the most dark pit you've ever imagined. Walking through the darkness all alone in thought that there will be light that could curve a smile on your face back again but no- there's nothing. Until one day, your heart accidently realized- why do you have to wait for him/ her to come back to you when you know you can never afford the same pain again? Why do you have to pro-past-death when he/ she is out there enjoying his/ her life? Why? He/ she has moved on without you. He/ she has left you the moment when you need him/ her the most. Why do you have to hate a person that you once love? Loving does not mean that that person has to love you back or suffering seeing someone happy- when you love someone, you don't have to say it. Tell Allah s.w.t. what your heart feels, what you want and what you will work for- and that is seeking for Allah's forgiveness and getting back to the right path. You may not realize but through it all, Allah s.w.t. had always been there for you and will always be there for you when nobody was. Quraan is your best friend because It will be the one to help you in the afterlife. And if you truly love him/ her. You should let him/ her go and start over your life. Fix what's wrong with you, improve yourself and note that Allah will never dissapoint you, ever. Cause if both of you are meant to be, you will be together. And for me, hating is immature. Allah s.w.t. dislikes people with hate. And it's a sin to break a bond with a muslim. Rasullullah s.a.w. will keep smiling even if that person is the most evil and horrible person on the universe, he will still be nice and smile to them. So, make Rasulullah s.a.w. as our example.